i’m so exhausted but i’m not ready for sleep, but i’m just really upset. with a lot of things. most of these things make me cry and give me a headache and i’m trying to decide how i’m going to properly function tomorrow. on top of that, i’m stressed about of bunch of little things, like my mom’s birthday and my teeth and how much pain i’m in. i’m just trying really hard to get to the next damn day, but that’s really difficult when you remember that you are, in fact, a failure, and you’ve turned into so many things you never wanted to be and realize how trapped and fucked you are.

but i’m really not alone in this position, so i guess i’m going to go to bed and get on with my life.